you always want what you can’t have.
this is gonna be the time i get it right.
You make me so frusterated. So why am I so crazy about you?
You were so friendly tonight. I felt like we were friends again. Its the first tome we actually laughed and joked since October. I wish we were like this more often. I wish you would quit talking to her. It feels way to familiar, and I hate that feeling. That feeling that I’ve have every weekend. But the bad thing is, you were drunk tonight. But I think I get it. Am I that horrible of a person that you can only be associated with me when you’re drinking? I want to know what I did that was so wrong. But ive got a feeling that this isn’t going to end well. Why should it change now anyway? You just drive me insane.
Its 2012, and ive never felt so horrible. So invisible. I wish you could read my mind, cause ive never felt so horrible. And I know this year is going to be just like last and last year wasn’t fun. I just wish I didn’t feel so bad all the time. I’m so envious all the time. I just wanted to feel wanted. I still do. I don’t want to feel worthless and horrible and not wanted anywhere anymore. I can believe how pessimistic I’m being. And that is soo like me, its just another thing about me that people hate. I’m just exhausted, so warn out. I feel so numb. How come I cant be slightly like them, slightly okay? Why does it just get handed to them? How did they get so lucky? I just need to feel something again. Soon, cause I cant do this much longer
Your tired of bad things happening to good people? Meet my friend Karma, she’s a bitch. You’ll probably be seeing a lot of eachother.
I love how you guys only talk to/include me in anything is when you want something. Some friends.
I wish this.was easier. I wish I could.make it.stop. I wish I could be good enough. I wish I was invisible, that you, me, and everyone else didn’t have to look at this. I wish I could stop.
that’s it. never again. this will happen.